The future….. Uh oh

So I have less than 1 year and a half of school left. Then I finish. Done and dusted. Just like that. It’s beginning to sink in at the moment, already making plans for our final year at school. We have been orgainising our Senior Jersey’s and formal (prom) venue at the moment. School Captain speeches will be happening at the start of next term and to be honest I’m absolutely scared shitless. The first 8 months of this year have gone so fast, I have 4 months until I’m in Gr.12, where everything counts. I’m going to be graduating soon. Holy shit! I have to start making plans for uni, moving away from home. I have to plan my future. It’s so weird to think that I have been on this world for 16 years, and in another 16 years I’ll be 32. It’s so weird to think that I will be someone like my parents who has a family, a job, responsibility. Its so weird to think that my parents, teachers, everyone was once 16, and look at them now. I can’t begin to comprehend that in less than 2 years I will be away from home, studying at uni. I don’t even know what course I want to do, I change my mind every 5 minutes for god’s sake. What if I hate it. What if my life is shit. What if I never meet anyone. It does my head in thinking about all these ‘what if’s’. I can’t even get my assignments done on time, how am I going to live in the real world. But I just need to put all that aside for the moment and ask myself the most important question: What dress will I wear to my formal?

Ahahah, Lots of love

– Candy


That school work I was supposed to do and actually did… kinda

So in my last post I said how over the 2 week school holidays we have I had school work I was meant to do but didn’t end up doing it. Well I did it… kinda… sort of… not really. I had a Maths B assignment and this booklet to fill out for English on the movie ‘Schindler’s List’ on plot, themes, camera angles and what not. Well, I didn’t do the maths or the booklet but I watched the film today and I think that’s more than enough effort in itself. The film is 195 mins long, that’s over 3 hours!! I sat for 3 hours and watched what really was to me a boring movie, don’t get me wrong it’s a classic and is very informative and it’s a great way to educate, remember and acknowledge the horrific events of the war and the holocaust but I really didn’t want to watch that depressing movie to finish my holidays. The thing is we are watching it again in class as well so I have to go through the same thing.

Don’t mind me and my 1st world problems I just haven’t done much worth blogging about in the past few days.

– Candy xx

Holidays!!!! and that school work I was supposed to do but didn’t…

So where I live in Australia at the moment we are on our June/July Half yearly break for 2 weeks. We get 4 lots of holidays a year (not including public hols) and our year is separated into 4 ‘terms’ from late January to early December (late Nov when you’re in Gr.10/11/12). Each term lasts approx 10 weeks and after each term we have a 2 week break, Term 4 is a 10 week term though Gr.10/11 finish in Wk 8 and Gr.12 in Wk 7. This means that you get about a 6 week holiday (8 week if in Gr.10/11) at the end of the year over Christmas and you start a new school year when you come back in January.

Anyway back to my original point, I’m on school holidays at the moment, I have 3 days left until I have to go back to school but in true fashion I haven’t done any of the work I was assigned to do over the holidays. To be honest it wasn’t even much at all, I just had to watch a movie, ‘Schindler’s  List’ (is it any good?) for English then fill out a booklet about plot, characters, themes and camera angles. The other thing I had to do was my Math B assignment which I have time to do when I get back to school before the draft is due but it just would have been a lot easier and less rushed to do it in the holidays when I was literally doing  nothing most days, just waking up at 10am then watching TV shows on my laptop. (Binge watching Game of Thrones and The Mentalist at the moment). Most days I just stayed in my pajamas. But in saying that, I think I earned that ‘doing nothing’ time all I wanted to do on the holiday was do nothing just take a break from school work and all the stress. I worked my ass off at the end of last term when we had Exam Block (A week where you only come for what exams you have, happens half yearly), I was so glad to finish and do nothing. But thinking about it now I will probably spend the next 3 days doing those assignments, I guess I should… I always say in the holidays that next term will be better, that I will start assignments and studying early, actually do my homework, revise what I’ve learnt each day when I come home etc.. I say this every term, does it ever happen? No. Will it ever? To be honest, probably not. But I’ll keep telling myself it to feel better anyway.

Ugh.. why did I have to think of school. Now I’m just thinking deep thoughts about my future. I guess that’s all from me,  so excuse me now while I lay in bed and deliberate what I’m doing with the rest of my life.

– Candy xx

An introduction to me and this blog!

Hey there,

If you’re reading this it means you have somehow stumbled upon my corner in the web (yay) and so to start off this journey I’m just going to give you a little introduction on myself.

I’m “almost” 16, just hanging out for that last month, I live in Australia and from the day I have posted this I have been blogging for exactly 1 year! I’ve had 2 previous blogs, a personal one which I started on and posted consistently for about 8 months and a book review blog which I had for about 3 months, It’s been nearly 3 months since I’ve stopped posting and to be honest it’s quite hard to come back after a long break. I decided that I wanted to  blog again for the simple reason that writing and blogging makes me happy, my blog is a way to express my feelings, thoughts and opinions about everything in my life to other people, to get my ideas out there when I’m not a famous celebrity or a powerful leader. I’m just a teenage girl, now there is a reason I crossed out the ‘just’, I originally wrote it without thinking but there shouldn’t be a just in that statement, I shouldn’t be limited by my age or gender but yet in some aspects I am. This is what I want to change. Blogging is a vessel for my views and voice to be heard, and to be honest sometimes I’m just going to have a rant on here, but only on occasion , I promise. I feel like I have gotten really off track while writing this but I’m just going to continue because this is how its probably going to be most of the time. Anyway, I wanted to start fresh with this new blog, I feel that I have changed so much lately and that if I’m going to start blogging again I need to do that with a new blog, a clean slate essentially.

More about me, I’m currently in Gr.11 at school (second last year), and I’m halfway through that, so only 1 and 1/2 years to go! When I’m not working as a checkout chick I’m either at dance class (or twirling/leaping around the house), practicing the violin(that’s I lie, I play the violin  just never practice) or watching TV shows on my laptop(most likely American ones because we have crap TV  shows here). Oh and don’t forget stuffing my face with chocolate.

On this blog I’ll probably most my thoughts on my everyday life, my views on issues, book reviews (a.k.a me just telling you bluntly what I thought of the book and if I considered it crap) and as mentioned before, the occasional rant.

Well, that’s enough about me for the moment. Hope I haven’t scared you off,

– Candy xx